Word of the day...

Tolerable...
The discomfort is tolerable :) Alhamdulillah :)

Day one-twenty-three...

Well, I've been a bit down this week... I don't really know why... I have been trying to get my eating back under control. I started having shakes twice a day now... hoping for more results. I feel alot better when I'm having them twice too. Im exhausted right now! I haven't been sleeping too well. Im not really sure if tonight will be any better... its after one a.m. now and I'm still up... although I am actually tired. I don't know how I will sleep, considering that I got a minor burn on my leg today. Its nothing major... masha'Allah... but it still hurts :( I took some Ibuprofen earlier and that seemed to help with my discomfort. Still, the leg that got burned is on my left leg and that is the leg that is usually under the cover when I sleep... Im not sure how Im gonna get comfy tonight :( I was in the bathroom and for some reason boiling hot water came through the istinga hose and it burst... burning my leg before I was able to jump up and stumble into the tub. I was truly frightened... Alhamdulillah... I am truly thankful it was so minor... it truly could have been much worse... Im horribly afraid of the bathrooms now... thats the second time that Ive burned myself although this time is much worse. Now we've gotta get a new hose and the pipe needs to be fixed too... ahhh... Ive gotta share a bathroom with my craze kids for a bit... thats never fun :( Well, at least it wasn't major :)

Word of the day...

Incredulity...
This is what I must resist feeling...

Day one-sixteen...

I've gotta get back to updating this blog daily... anyway, the last few days have been pretty good. Yesterday I had shakes all day long in preparation for my evening meal and that went pretty good, masha'Allah. I did eat a bit more than I should have but it was because we had company and they brought delicious food. Still, my will-power is lacking a bit :( Today has started out pretty good but its still early. May Allah bless  me with will-power... ahmeen. I feel huge actually. I think I'm just bloated or something but its getting on my nerves and I am eager for it to go down. I've been drinking crazy amounts of water trying to flush out my system but its not really working. I feel better in the mornings though. I'm okay now but I know that later I might feel huge again. I know that I need to kick it up a notch and then maybe even my bloatings wont seem too bad... hmmm thats a thought :)

Day one-twelve...

This has been a very trying week... as for my diet that is. :( Im having a bit of trouble with my will power at the moment. I really want to get on track but its just so difficult. I don't know why that is exactly. I feel so depressed about it too. I know that Ive gotta just chalk up the last few days and start over but its harder than it should be. Im no good with temptations right now thats for sure. I really wish that I were not like this. I would love to never have to deal with this embarrassing side of myself... the side of me that is addicted to something that I must have to survive. I've gotta push through this. I've come so far now to let this little (although to me it seems huge) bump in the path mess me up. I've gotta get it together!!! I need more patience with my cravings and more self-control. I will get it together insha'Allah... I know that I am important enough to get through this and accomplish great things in this life, insha'Allah. I will keep moving my feet in the right direction and I won't worry about my mis-steps of the past. Insha'Allah I will get where I need to be, insha'Allah...
 

Word of the day...

Vociferous...
Yep... thats how it is with a house full of crazy kids...

Day one-oh-eight...

Well, today has been really great as far as my plan is concerned. I had a shake for breakfast and dinner and I ate a nice lunch. I am pleased with my will power today. I am praying that I can last though... my darlin' hubby brought home a pack of those...horrible... yummy... delicious... evil... Oreos... I'm not sure how to resist... Ive gotta give it alot of effort though. Its so hard not to nibble... especially since I plan on curling up with a book to enjoy my evening... when my extremely LOUD girls finally go to bed. I like to nibble while I read... well... I'll see if I can resist...