End of day forty-two...

I feel myself slipping these days. I have gotta get back into my groove of eating according to reason not desire. I will get there, insha'Allah. I know that these days have been a bit difficult and the temptations have been pretty much unlimited, still, I've gotta get it together. So much food has been pouring through the doors of the house due to the situation, may Allah reward all those who have helped...ahmeen. I don't really have a good reason for eating... but then again, thats how my addiction works, right? I must resist and take hold of myself. I can't let myself fall back into old habits, insha'Allah. Today will be much better, insha'Allah... I will abide by my plan and I will feel better, insha'Allah. I will, by the Mercy and Will of Allah alone, be a thin, healthy, happier woman... I will try to make more time for updates, insha'Allah. I can't let myself return to the 'old' me...thats unbearable... may Allah make it easy for me... ahmeen.