I feel a flood of mixed emotions today. Earlier I was telling my hubby how I feel like I'm really making a life change and that for the first time in my life I actually feel like I will really change. It makes me happy to feel that I am changing my way of life and with that I am protecting myself from the stresses of regaining the weight. I was so content earlier. Well, now I feel so mixed. I am sitting here struggling to resist the urge to eat. I know that this will probably never go away. Still, I wish it were easier. I want to eat emotionally and that is not good right now. I need to take a step back and refocus. I don't want to make a mistake. I will be good though, insha'Allah. I am just very emotional right now... you know women and their emotions... :) well, today has been great, except for my extreme gush of emotions. I will make it though and tomorrow will be easier, insha'Allah.
end of day 51!!! (that ain't nothin' to complain about!)
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