Mixed emotions...

Today I let myself enjoy a few treats, as a break. I have earned it but still felt a bit a guilt after consuming it. I don't know why I am so emotional about things sometimes. I just feel like I'm never gonna not be addicted to food. That scares me. I get a handle on it for a while and I always have to worry about when I will slip up. I guess I should just remember that each day is a chance to succeed and continue to push through all of the emotions and achieve thinness for the first time in my life. I can do it...insha'Allah.